dear diary,
i am writing to you after long time i guess. i have broadband connection and my phone was dead few days ago so could not come to blogger and tell you the things that are making me happy. i am feeling as if my mind is not working. diary i haven't received the call about which i was positive. the hr at shipping company had told me that there are quite a lot chances of me getting selected for the post but i did not get any call till now, i do not know how to react to this.
a girl from modelling agency called me today saying that i should wait some more to see my photographs on their website. i hope i will get selected at least in the audition which i gave, anyways. many things happened in these days. well G is still busy with the construction of his new home in his village. you know diary how possessive i get about him. my heart bits go up and i feel extremely depressed when i think or hear him talking about someone else. i can not take it. today he was kidding with me by talking sweet things about my cousin. i am thinking of something to make him jealous too, but i do not what should i say to make him go green with envy.
he is too possessive about me. today i was busy talking to someone (that cousin only) when he was calling. later when i called him, the first thing he asked, "with whom you were talking to for such a long time?" i could sense the insecurity in his voice and i felt really nice.
i want he to be more possessive about me. i want him to want me every now and then. i want him to get disturbed without me. today my hand wrist and my right toe is paining, do not why. i have applied ointment there.
one more thing, i am finding it hard to rise early in the morning. i had several plans of going for jogging and excising or starting up with some yoga and meditation but all plans failed big time. i hope how can find some tricks to get up early without any hesitation. my sis has pissed up with my mobile's alarm as i keep it on snooze mode and it irritates her. days are quite boring and dull. nothing more to tell. will go to sleep after sometime.
bye diary, love you G (my bf)
