Oh! I love you so much♥

Dear Diary,

Finally, my boyfriend gave his pending birthday treat after 2 months. We had lunch together at a restaurant near my home. 19Th September of 2009 proved a good day for me. He was looking happy and was quite eager to show me his new laptop. In my tiny winy bedroom we shared some loving moments. Someone has said so truly that soul meets soul on lover's lips and I totally believe in this saying.

He liked the gift I purchased for him, a descent pale orange brownish checkered shirt. I asked him to try it out but he said that he will try it out later at home. i was wearing a cute black t-shirt paired with skinny jeans. I asked him, "am I looking cute?" He said, "No, you are not looking cute, you are looking very very very cute." I was on cloud nine to hear this. the day had a scent of love, an aroma of affection and a fragrance of passion. I think we two are truly made for each other.

diary i want to confess that though our relationship is not like those couples who roam around frequently, go on a date regularly, we have sacred connection. I am sorry if sometimes I will be critical about his behavior but the truth is I love him from my soul. Darling my soul is all yours. I am all yours. I found it so touching, today we were talking about our future kids. we were talking about what will be the names of our children when we will get married and have children. sometimes he is so loving and cute, sometimes he is just hard to understand. But one thing is for sure, I love him a lot and cannot live without him.

This is all I want to share today. Today I completed one assignment. I am happy to get the fruit of my work. Just had dinner, mom cooked potatoes and that makes me share that sometimes my darling calls me potato as I am little healthy. I am not sure whether I should think seriously about losing some weight. Well, I am planning to go for a morning walk tomorrow, let's see if my mobile alarm comes for my rescue!

See you, tada!

Hope the waiting will pay

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Dear Diary,

Well on 16^th September 2009 I gave another job interview. Here all I had to do is waiting, waiting and some more waiting. I had only a cup of tea and some biscuits in the morning. As I was running late I skipped my lunch and left home. I was not lucky as I boarded wrong bus, I had to get down at the next bus stop and wait again. Thankfully the bus came before I would have gone mad waiting. By 2 o’clock I reached the destination but I was finding it difficult to search the exact location of the building.

The day was hot and I roamed around for almost half an hour under the burning sun. I almost melted. I had the address with me but without any proper landmark. Finally with the help of passersby and security guards of the other buildings I found the location. I entered the building near D’mart. It was quite lavish with huge reception area. I enquired the receptionist about my appointment. She asked me to wait. I think I waited for more than twenty minutes before the HR executive called me for the test.

Later an office assistant ushered me to a conference room. I was sitting all alone there for almost 15 minutes before the HR executive finally came with some papers in her hand. There was a pin drop silence in the room. The room had two LCD screens with a small camera, a huge table and chairs. An automatic room freshener was refreshing the chilled air conditioned room with sweet aroma after every five minutes. The test lasted for half an hour. I cleared the test.

Then I found myself waiting in the reception for 45 minutes for another round of interview with HR head. It was a benign round of interview, but unfortunately they told me that I have to come again for yet another interview session. Then I left the office, called the lift, called mom to give synopsis of the day, called for auto rickshaw and came at the bus stop. My luck was not with me as I waited for the bus for 15 minutes. Finally the crowded bus came and I was hardly able to balance throughout the journey. Finally I got the seat. I was happy that at last I got to hear some music.

Today, the 17 September was not a good day as G. harassed me on silly topics. He behaves quite weird sometimes. I have a complaint that he does not spend enough time with me. You know that we went on a date a year back. Can you believe that diary? Am I wrong to complain? Today his friend gave him party; they both had dinner at restaurant. I told him that I will be happy if he will have lose motions tomorrow as he is having good time with his this nothing for good friend and not with me.

I will be happy if their friendship breaks somehow. Wish such thing could happen. I will distribute sweets to all whom I know. Anyways, I think one should give importance to his relationship before it’s too late. You know what diary, I should think about myself first. Actually I should care shit about some things and should concentrate on my career. One more thing I want to share with you, I want a car. Do not know when I will own one but I am eager to buy myself a car. Right now I am stopping over here, will be back soon with sweet and sour things to tell.

Good Night :(

The job hunt is on...

Dear diary,

good evening. mom and sister have gone to dentist to take measurement for the cap that my sis need to fix. i was feeling sleepy but i thought i should tell you how was my interview today. as i told you earlier today i had an interview scheduled. i got up early in the morning. mom ironed my sky blue striped shirt and black trouser. i applied light make-up which was of no use as i was sweating heavily due to sunny climate till i reached the destination. i carried my file containing copies of resumes.

when i reached the office i was asked to fill the register and then they handed me a visitor's pass. then i called for elevator and went on the fourth floor of the building. the office which i visited occupied the five floors of a plush building with beautiful glass facade. i asked for the concerned HR executive who took my interview. she asked for my resume. the interview started with a warm-up question where i told about myself. the interview lasted for 10 minutes and in these 10 minutes i answered following questions:

tell me something about yourself.
tell me about your previous job/jobs.
why you left your previous job?
what do you know about our organization?
what is you filed of interest?

after answering these questions, the HR executive told me that she will talk with her seniors and will inform me. i got done with other formalities like saying, 'nice to meet you.' finally i asked her permission to leave and left. elevator brought me on the first floor again where i submitted the visitor's pass and came on the ground floor. there was no sign of rain today. i was sweating heavily as climate was very humid yet sunny. i started walking toward station to board a train to get back home.

my boyfriend called me when i was at bus stop. as usual he told me i only know how to fight but he knows that i also know how to love. as usual we shared lots of love yous and kisses on phone. i came home and had my lunch. then a friend called me and told that he is leaving his current job as he got a new job with much higher salary. he got the job through reference. i admit that i went green with envy for a while. i congratulated him and had a small conversation with mom about getting job.

tomorrow again i have to go for an interview at one place, where i have to attempt an aptitude test first. right now i have only one question in mind that when i will be lucky to get a good job. i just went back and read my earlier post about being positive and i am being positive. anyways, let's see how things turn out. wish me best luck as that is what i need.

See-you♥

B POSITIVE!

Dear Diary,

last time i said that i will come back with something positive to share with you. You know when we look around or should i say when we yearn for something positive, we often bump into a positive situation. on Sunday i was watching Farah Khan's show, Tere Mere Bich Main where she invited Vivek Oberoi, Ritesh Deshmukh and Shreeshant. there is one special segment in the show where the host invites someone special from the ordinary people. on this particular episode came a man who lost his both legs while he was trying to cross railway tracks. the mishap left him handicapped but still he did not lose his hope in life. today he is walking on artificial legs and earning his bread and butter like any other person.

he is of course gone into depression after his accident and felt angry that his silly mistake of not using bridge cost him so much. but then he stood up again with confidence and also started an NGO to help others like him. his story is really an eye opener, for those who break safety rules like not crossing railway tracks, but for those also who think that life is negative. tears rolled down my eyes while watching this show and i clapped for this extraordinary man. often we complain about negative things in life, but we ignore positive things that exist in this world. we just have to think positive to let the positive things happen in our lives.

so i decided that i should not worry about little things like not getting job, i must keep trying. tomorrow, on 15Th September i have an interview scheduled with a media company. today i read the entire website of the company and done my research. i have my resume ready. i hope i will get this job, i am positive. i will do my best in the interview and rest depends on destiny.

to tell you more diary, my sweetheart came from his village. he had gone there for a week for some work. but he will go back again as the work is in progress. i will catch you later with more things happening.

buh-bye♥

When people show sympathy...

Dear Diary,

Today again I got disappointed as usual. I got up early today but the entire day was quite boring. In the evening there was nothing to do and thus i sat in front of PC. well you can find a thousand ways to spend your time on the internet. I ended up logging in my account on one of the famous social networking websites. I kept my visibility ON and regretted it later.

I have done my graduation. I was working with one company a few months before but left that job as my boss was a bitch. She insulted me and hold me responsible for the mistake which i did not do. since then i am trying to find a job. i gave interviews at several places, i am spending a few hours daily on job sites, but believe me only lowly companies post job opportunities on most of the job sites and timesjobs is the most pathetic website.

So back to the topic, today i was online and two of my acquaintances asked me if i found the job. i am feeling terrible and depressed that i am not getting my kind a job. but believe me dear when i will get the job first thing i will do is go online on social networking websites and chat with some idiots and let them know that i got the job, now get jealous. why everyone is into pulling other person's legs in this world? i don't think so that i will be able to find answer to this question but now it is time to finish my first post. next time i will try to be more positive, i promise.

good night, sweet dreams♥